At one of my early visits, my oncologist said to me...
If cancer doesn't change your life in a thousand different ways, you're not paying attention.
Amen, Sister!
Cancer has changed my life. I'm sure everyone with a life threatening illness has an epiphany at some point. I haven't had a moment I can point toward. No aha moments for me. At least, not yet. But it has made me think a lot about how I spend my time, who I spend it with, and oddly...where I live.
I love where I live. I have the best neighbors ever. I have a warm and comfortable home in a convenient location. But I don't love north Raleigh. I have wanted to live in the mountains as long as I can remember. The thought of living in the mountains rarely leaves me.
So what's stopping me? Me. Just me. Oh I've made a ton of excuses over the years for not moving. Mostly around my job.
I work remotely for a company in another state. I could live anywhere and still do my work. But what if I lose my job? I need to be in a place where I can get another job. It's easier to find a good job in an urban area than on the side of a mountain somewhere.
And then there's the cancer. I'm glad I live in an area where quality healthcare was just down the street. It doesn't get much better than Duke or UNC for healthcare. So glad I'm not living in a tiny little town in the middle of nowhere.
But I won't always be able to use cancer as an excuse. Let's hope. And I am slowly getting past my illusion that I won't be able to get a job in a more rural area. It'll just take a little more effort. Those of us who have worked from home tend to know where good telecommuting jobs can be had.
So what's stopping me? Me. Just me.
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