It's not true after a procedure or surgery. Then, everything hurts. But unless someone with a needle or scalpel gets hold of me, nothing hurts. They make it hurt.
There is no indication I have cancer that I can see or feel. None. I have to take it completely on faith. I have to trust. Trust the Radiologist that he knows what he sees on the films. Trust the breast surgeon that she knows what she is scooping out of my body. Trust the oncologist to read the pathology reports and interpret the blood work.
These are highly educated dedicated people. They are specialists in their field. They know what they are doing. I have faith in them.
The problem with this sort of faith and trust in my doctors is that I find myself second guessing them. Are you SURE? Are you 100% absolutely positive I have cancer? Because nothing hurts.
Nothing hurts, there are no lesions, no outward evidence that anything is wrong with me. How can I possibly be sick when nothing hurts, there's no fever, no broken bones, nothing.
Occasionally, I find myself wondering if this is all really happening to me. Since I have no real evidence that I can point toward...am I imagining this? Is it real?
I usually take a friend with me to my many doctor appointments. I want someone else to hear the same thing I'm hearing. Just so I can be sure I'm not imagining this.
Cause...sometimes...it doesn't seem real.
There is no indication I have cancer that I can see or feel. None. I have to take it completely on faith. I have to trust. Trust the Radiologist that he knows what he sees on the films. Trust the breast surgeon that she knows what she is scooping out of my body. Trust the oncologist to read the pathology reports and interpret the blood work.
These are highly educated dedicated people. They are specialists in their field. They know what they are doing. I have faith in them.
The problem with this sort of faith and trust in my doctors is that I find myself second guessing them. Are you SURE? Are you 100% absolutely positive I have cancer? Because nothing hurts.
Nothing hurts, there are no lesions, no outward evidence that anything is wrong with me. How can I possibly be sick when nothing hurts, there's no fever, no broken bones, nothing.
Occasionally, I find myself wondering if this is all really happening to me. Since I have no real evidence that I can point toward...am I imagining this? Is it real?
I usually take a friend with me to my many doctor appointments. I want someone else to hear the same thing I'm hearing. Just so I can be sure I'm not imagining this.
Cause...sometimes...it doesn't seem real.
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